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Posted on Thu, Feb 09, 2006 16:58

Hi. I haven't posted in a while, am still recovering from the hurricane. The good news is I have lost 28 pounds. The not so good news is that I have lost it due to stress and my hair is brown again. I know the red is beautiful, but I live in a Fema trailer, which is basically a work trailer with a bed, fridge, stove (that doesn't work) and a shower with a 5 gallon hot water heater. Can't very well color my hair with that little water, so back to natural I went.
Things are better financially. Still can't afford to move into a house, but am working and have a car again. Trying to tough it out at least until the end of the school year.
My birthday was the 31st, kind of a sad time for me being single, then Valentine's Day only 2 weeks behind it. Always thought V- day was kinda dumb and single people have to feel left out.
Don't understand why I'm single, I think I'm a great catch. Perhaps I have too high an opinion of myself, then the older I get and the longer I'm alone, the more picky I become, the more i expect out of a man. Someone I would have settled for or things I would have put up with as a younger woman, I find unacceptable now. Don't want to just settle with anyone just to avoid loneliness, then wind up in a more miserable existence than I am now, like so many people I know.
Am I beyond hope? Do I expect too much? I mean, if I just lower my standards, isn't that degrading myself, or cutting myself short of what I deserve? If I settle for Mr. O.K. then after I'm married could meet Mr. Perfect for Me, and I'm stuck with O.K.
But what if Mr.Perfect never comes and I'm the skeleton lady sitting on the park bench waiting?
What should I do? Is there a psychic or a psychologist in the house?



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Posted on Mon, Feb 13, 2006 16:59

Dear little sister Goth........
Happy Belated Birthday! And don't you think for one minute that you're all alone! I used to think that, a long time ago, even after dating quite a bit when I was first divorced.
There was a very long stretch where I did nothing but work, work, work, and when I got home at night I'd just go to the computer and talk to my friends for a while before going to sleep.
One evening one of the people I'd been talking to asked to meet me in person, to go for dinner and a drink.............and I said it would be nice.
Well, that was in 2004, and after realizing that we'd each found the one we were looking for, we stopped looking for someone to love.
Wolf and I got engaged this past Christmas!
We were good friends long before we fell in love...........so don't you pass up on friendships with any nice men you may meet along the way.
You're quite a woman Ms. Goth! You're a survivor! Happy Valentine's Day!



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Posted on Mon, Feb 13, 2006 15:38

Happy Belated birthday Gothic! Thank you for sharing...Hugs...
Nope...don't ever ever settle just so you're not alone. I've been divorced 5 years since 1/17 & I've got a lot of friends but yet at times I feel oh so alone. But you know what? I would rather be this way than to settle just so I'm not alone. Do I get down & feeling sorry for myself sometimes? Oh yeah...but then I talk with my dear friends here & outside of here & they lift me up again. Does it suk being single & with Valentine's Day tomorrow? Yep it does. I just got together this last weekend with a bunch of friends from here & we did a WI Valentines get together at a hotel which was a blast. And you know what I might do tomorrow? I may just stop & buy myself some flowers. No roses though cuz they jack the price up so darn much just cuz of the day. But mini red carnations mixed with baby's breath just might work for me.
From reading what you posted, you seem like a very strong woman. And from remembering past things that you've written that is what I felt about you.
Keep smiling that beautiful smile of yours & always keep a smile in your heart. And here's a rose for you for Valentine's Day tomorrow. From one friend to another. Take care. Hugs...

  


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Posted on Sun, Feb 12, 2006 16:49

Thanks for all the positive responses. I am trying to just keep a good attitude and an open mind. Really I need to focus on getting the rest of my stuff out of my house. I don't really have time to worry about a man right now, it's just hard around birthdays and stupid V- Day to be alone.



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Posted on Sat, Feb 11, 2006 12:17

Goth, I know from experience that some times when there is so much going on in your life and the stress level is extremely high, that energy positive or negative can be felt by others around you. Whatever you current state, that vibration can attract or repel potential friends or partners depending on where they are emotionally too. It sounds like you're getting your feet back on the ground and you will naturally become more open on those subliminal levels to allow someone into your life. Things can change in an instant. You just might look at someone, one day soon, and your eyes just lock on each other. Then, just go with flow and see where it leads.

Oh, and Happy Belated Birthday, too !



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Posted on Fri, Feb 10, 2006 22:02

gothic_biker_hippie write:
Hi. I haven't posted in a while, am still recovering from the hurricane. The good news is I have lost 28 pounds. The not so good news is that I have lost it due to stress and my hair is brown again. I know the red is beautiful, but I live in a Fema trailer, which is basically a work trailer with a bed, fridge, stove (that doesn't work) and a shower with a 5 gallon hot water heater. Can't very well color my hair with that little water, so back to natural I went.
Things are better financially. Still can't afford to move into a house, but am working and have a car again. Trying to tough it out at least until the end of the school year.
My birthday was the 31st, kind of a sad time for me being single, then Valentine's Day only 2 weeks behind it. Always thought V- day was kinda dumb and single people have to feel left out.
Don't understand why I'm single, I think I'm a great catch. Perhaps I have too high an opinion of myself, then the older I get and the longer I'm alone, the more picky I become, the more i expect out of a man. Someone I would have settled for or things I would have put up with as a younger woman, I find unacceptable now. Don't want to just settle with anyone just to avoid loneliness, then wind up in a more miserable existence than I am now, like so many people I know.
Am I beyond hope? Do I expect too much? I mean, if I just lower my standards, isn't that degrading myself, or cutting myself short of what I deserve? If I settle for Mr. O.K. then after I'm married could meet Mr. Perfect for Me, and I'm stuck with O.K.
But what if Mr.Perfect never comes and I'm the skeleton lady sitting on the park bench waiting?
What should I do? Is there a psychic or a psychologist in the house?

Happi belated birthday sweetie and brown is very becoming on you, remember that what doesnt kill us makes us stronger, remember that just as you evolve, the Mr rights and Mr okays and mr wrongs are evolving also, who is wrong now could be right at another time. Fairy tales end happily, but life goes on, and is always about change, and its purpose is for us to become the best, the most RIGHT we can be and it is within yourself you will find your best friend and lover..if you want a male friend there are several here with hands outstetched to you, some even carry bouquets, as they wish you a lovely valentines day...



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Posted on Fri, Feb 10, 2006 20:20

Thanks. That's a cool picture. I don't really stress over the stuff I lost. Some of the sentimental things, but life goes on. I didn't ever really put much monetary value on things. I wonder if anyone has read about my Fema trailer experience I posted. It's kinda funny. I wasn't ever a high-falutin' person, but there are even little old church ladies running around jokingly calling each other "trailer trash." I'm trying to get some t-shirts made that say "Fema trailer trash." Actually wife-beaters would be better than t-shirts. Don't call me trailer trash. I'm a step under that. I'm Fema trailer trash! You have to joke or go crazy. Hey, it beats being homeless. I did that scene for almost 3 months before I got this metal box!



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Posted on Fri, Feb 10, 2006 19:46

Welcome back Goth and glad you made it through! Things can be replaced, you can't. Know it's hard, but we all travel roads for a reason, easier to say when yer not in it, but we've all had our 'hurricanes'.

Stay true and keep yer pretty smile. We're all here!



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Posted on Fri, Feb 10, 2006 08:06

Hello again. Thanks for the support. Sometimes it is good just to talk to someone. Nice to know I'm not as nuts as I think I am. I am going to post something about life in a Fema trailer. It may sound funny, but it is all true. Check it out.



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Posted on Fri, Feb 10, 2006 07:48

Hey goth ...You sound like you are a very strong woman who knows what she wants.We all have our soulmate i beleive but we never know when it will happen! i am glad to hear your on your feet but do hope you also take care of yourself .I cant imagine what youve been through but you are in my thoughts and prayers.Kin is right spend the day with someone you love and it doesnt have to be a man.He will come to you one day.I am waiting to!!If you need anything ...we are here!!!!!!! Big hug ...kitten



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Posted on Fri, Feb 10, 2006 06:10

ahhh your not missing anything on Valentines Day ! Its so Hyped up its pathetic ! Don't be envious Be greatful! You survived a tragedy in your life without even a man to blame Ha Ha! and are getting back on your feet! What a Girl! Rock On!
Jade



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Posted on Fri, Feb 10, 2006 06:10

(((((((((((Goth))))))))))))))))



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Posted on Fri, Feb 10, 2006 05:22

Congrats on getting back on your feet. Can't imagine how rough it must have been. Share Valentines Day with someone ya love..a friend, family member..doesnt have to be a man..thought it's nice when it is.

Don't settle..just find someone ya love to be with..let it grow from there. No ones perfect but neither are we. Good luck chickie.



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