Creek--Are you OK? Don't leave us alright? Hang tight.
Spado--That is beautiful..I needed that.
Seeme--does serenity mean calmness??
I want to thank those that wrote me in private...Even though I requested that you post your replies to me..because I am not the only one who will benefit from your words...but thank you..thank you..thank you..I feel myself stepping up on the dirt mound already! It's a great day!
Creek.....And patience to wait for the answers comes after you ask and ask and ask...
I never asked. I lived in that vortex of despair. My problems weren't relationship, but emotional and physical hurts. My heart was broken, but not from love of another, rather from losing the ability to love from the war.
I knew I wanted change. I never sat down and stopped trying to change reality long enough to actually "pray", but my thoughts, my deep thoughts, were asking for change. Who was I asking? God, The Creator hears it all, not just when you get on your knees or when you start a sentence with "Dear God".
I found something that was there all along. I cultivated it. The human guides, the people I talk to and the Elders will teach you as well as God through your thoughts. But you must be patient.
I know this is hard. It is still very hard for me to wait for an answer to my prayers. I also accept the fact that the obstacle placed before me is suppose to be there for whatever reason.
Sometimes it's not about you. Sometimes we're just the pawn as God uses us to affect another. Accept what is happening to you and keep asking for the change, you will get a strong thought and then it's time to act.
More experienced in marriage...yes hun..Ive never been married...but I have had my heart broken in a tragic ways before...hurt is hurt...I would not dare give you advice when I dont know what you are talking about and you didn't ask for it, it's not my place too...but I do know how to pray and ask God to heal your heart and hurts...this thread is about stuggling in ANY area....not about me.
Gods given me way way way!!! more than I asked for! So what do you do than?? and I'VE been there to handle it all! Asking nothing in return! relationship wise!!! SO what do you than??????? I'm a lover not a taker!! I left everything!!! My ex and I were best friends, never even fought! but he just wasn't there companionship wise,husband wise after 11 years!! All I wanted to be was a great friend and lover and to take care of him!!!!
Seeme...That's pretty cool ..the serenity stones...i heard once - if you cant do it with your father sitting there with you..you probabally shouldn't do it! Well...i guess unless your married..different story. like the mirror thing...that's true. Ty
Spado...gosh! you mean your not perfect??? LOL I'll talk to God about you..how's that? The feeling I got when you opened up about yourself was awesome...wow...a softening or something..understanding..you know when others struggle and open up we learn from them too..and when others speak up and give honest advice everybody learns. ty
Creek...I'm glad you are ready to start over..and that you would like to create happiness around you..that is an awesome thought to have in your heart girl. What comes to mind..is this..God will not give us more than we can handle. So somebody's "really bad" thing that happened to them might be only a small thing to someone else and vice versa.
Hey #1 Angel....Don't get rid of it. It's good, it's from your heart. Some may need it sooner or later.
I'll tell you about a small part of my struggle. I want to walk this path, a spiritual path.
Understanding what is expected is hard. I have a very hard time wondering what others think of me. Sure, I know all the right things. I'm not suppose to care what they think, let my heart guide me, but it's hard.
Also it is hard to stay on course. It's a difficult task to keep up the good works. Then we struggle with our own guilt and shame from the past.
Prayer is an answer to these problems when they come alive. But even prayer is hard to do when you are depressed and feeling vulnerable.
I need prayers. I pray for others. As the Lakota Elder says, "Pray for the health and happiness of the people, all the people"
"And pray from your heart, not your head"
Really talk to God. Say whatever it is in language that you understand. Talk like your telling a good friend that you trust.
Harleys1Angel write: I'm struggling right now between being REALLY BAD and REALLY GOOD.. I have been in this struggle for about 6 mo's now. I'm finding it hard to stay a "really good Christian". I am just asking for prayer in this matter for those that pray. ty
always look into your heart
my daddy once told me that if i couldn't look at myself in the mirror in the morning it wasn't the right thing to do---and yes in the past there was a time i couldn't look at myself in the mirror--and i changed my behavior
only you can determine what won't allow you to look at yourself in the mirror
the prayer that has helped me with me has always been the serenity prayer--i have the serenity stones and pull one a day--and pray on what stone it is i need to work on for that day!!!!!