Confession Religion

  • View author's info posted on Feb 09, 2006 07:34


    Weenie write:
    Wow....I just found this.....I have basically stayed away from this forum...I was raised..ya don't discuss religion and politics amongst friends...to bad I am diving in.

    I was raised a Methodist and have attended the Baptist and Catholics churches, either with friends or on my own accord...I just couldn't seem to make it work. It's not that I didn't believe, it's not that I didn't want to follow a religious path....I just had a hard time as I watched the churches change...I felt like you could buy your way into heaven and the church became the bank. But....I have truly found my way into a spiritual life in the past six months that have truly changed me. I am discovering my roots, my native american heritage and I believe I have finally found my place. I have found peace. Everyone here thinks I am so nice....well, let me give you a little confession.....I haven't always been. I used to have a temper that was like a match to gasoline. What fixed that, the loose of a sibling...but that in turn caused something else...a path of self destruction. I have been down so many roads in my life, and all of it make up who I am today....I truly believe that people come and go or come and stay to either help you on your journey or to teach you something at that point and time that you need it. This site alone has brought more people into my life that has been a blessing than anywhere else I have been. Will I continue on the journey I am on now....you bet I will, until I take my last breath.


    Right on Weenie!!
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  • View author's info posted on Feb 09, 2006 06:09


    Wow....I just found this.....I have basically stayed away from this forum...I was raised..ya don't discuss religion and politics amongst friends...to bad I am diving in.

    I was raised a Methodist and have attended the Baptist and Catholics churches, either with friends or on my own accord...I just couldn't seem to make it work. It's not that I didn't believe, it's not that I didn't want to follow a religious path....I just had a hard time as I watched the churches change...I felt like you could buy your way into heaven and the church became the bank. But....I have truly found my way into a spiritual life in the past six months that have truly changed me. I am discovering my roots, my native american heritage and I believe I have finally found my place. I have found peace. Everyone here thinks I am so nice....well, let me give you a little confession.....I haven't always been. I used to have a temper that was like a match to gasoline. What fixed that, the loose of a sibling...but that in turn caused something else...a path of self destruction. I have been down so many roads in my life, and all of it make up who I am today....I truly believe that people come and go or come and stay to either help you on your journey or to teach you something at that point and time that you need it. This site alone has brought more people into my life that has been a blessing than anywhere else I have been. Will I continue on the journey I am on now....you bet I will, until I take my last breath.

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  • View author's info posted on Feb 05, 2006 17:59


    Harleys1Angel write:


    Oh Dyna! Be careful what you say!!! ROFL!!

    Sheesh...why start bein careful now???
  • View author's info posted on Feb 05, 2006 00:53


    havfun write:
    Harleys1

    e ..well...being a complete sh!thead like I used to be!!!!!! It is no friggin good to even be honest anymore! F@CK SH!T F@CK ME RUNNING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

    ...me, Hav fun, is a guy with low self esteem and very much dwells on his problems,insecurities, building mountains out of molehills, not trusting himself, he turns to others for advice, in search of the right thing to do, cause he really wants to, ya kno? But his mentaly baring his soul makeshim vulnerable, for all his well meant honesty, and even the most well meaning people may perceive a quite different meaning to his words than the one he wishes to convey. "who cancontrolthe tongue"? refrain from anger, refrain from expressing too much of your self doubt, your dreams, to the general public..u mean well, but the devil will use it against you. A hard lesson, H1A, but one I am learning, and if my remarks are way off base, I sincerly apologize. You are a good person. or this wouldnt bother you, I hope this helped it all make sense. thank you.

    Havfun,
    Be easy on yourself. Remember JC spoke openly in public of things people couldn't even conceive now let alone then.
    People who condemn others quickly for their trails and humanity are often times running from their own shadows.
    How old is the scape goat?
    What you said was hide yourself and the true you from the world because it is dangerous.
    H1A confessed the same thing
    "It is no friggin good to even be honest anymore!"
    Yet she healed this by confessing it and being honest with how she was feeling revealing what her strength would rather hide.
    Being brave enough to publicly confess your weakness is where with the Eyes of God we see our unity in this fraility and become strengthened because the Common One is revealed in honest sharing.
    If we hide our truth then God can never be reveal and the darkness will win over the light.
    Be careful of your harsh thoughts about your ability to express yourself they tend to shape you by your own thought. you can express yourself and did well.
    We each have our own special talents in the Body of God and each contributes to Mystery's Majesty!

    Peace and Wisdom continue to fill your heart and strengthen you!
  • View author's info posted on Feb 05, 2006 00:00


    Fear of being weak is the pride born of division. Disconnected from God all things seek power...strength.
    All things united in God and their is no thirst for power.
    Love is union. All in One, One in All no weakness to be found. I think the spirit in you perceives a mystery not often grasped.

    Marriage in equal maturity seeking mutual growth and development is a great thing. Orbital trips around the sun don't necessarily mark maturity. Spirit and mind must both yearn for the painful coming to conciousness to mature. Birth is a stressful thing.

    Peace to All
  • View author's info posted on Feb 04, 2006 20:18


    Harleys1Angel write:
    havfun write:
    Harleys1Angel write:
    OK....confession time...don't even know who or if anyone is going to read this..but here it goes..

    I met someone I REALLY liked on a christian dating site..gorgeous man...godly man...I KNEW he really liked me and the feeling was mutual..we were just getting to know eachother after about 2 months..the whole thing just felt right..

    We started talking on the just before going to NY and I think I made a HUGE mistake..

    My first post on this thread was a confession of wanting to do good or be a bad girl...blah blah blah...well...

    I am on something called livejournal and basically you say anything you want on it just to relieve stress or say what is on your heart...it's a live journal. So during this last little phase of mine I said some things that weren't well let's just say should come from a christian girls mouth! If he only knew all of it! Man!

    So he read it...I think I just lost the guy I am supposed to be with!! Dammn!!! He wrote me when I came back from NY and dumped me flat on my A$$!! Out of the blue...I am sooooooo upset right now...havent stopped crying since I've been back.

    That's exactly why I have stopped judging people for what they do or don't do as far as "sinning" is concerned. It just makes them feel bad. I feel like I wasn't "good" enough for him....you know what a terrible feeling that is? I am so upset!!!!! I just feel like ..well...being a complete sh!thead like I used to be!!!!!! It is no friggin good to even be honest anymore! F@CK SH!T F@CK ME RUNNING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

    ...me, Hav fun, is a guy with low self esteem and very much dwells on his problems,insecurities, building mountains out of molehills, not trusting himself, he turns to others for advice, in search of the right thing to do, cause he really wants to, ya kno? But his mentaly baring his soul makeshim vulnerable, for all his well meant honesty, and even the most well meaning people may perceive a quite different meaning to his words than the one he wishes to convey. "who cancontrolthe tongue"? refrain from anger, refrain from expressing too much of your self doubt, your dreams, to the general public..u mean well, but the devil will use it against you. A hard lesson, H1A, but one I am learning, and if my remarks are way off base, I sincerly apologize. You are a good person. or this wouldnt bother you, I hope this helped it all make sense. thank you.

    HavFun..I really like what you have to say ..in most cases except this one of course!! LOL! Where have your scriptures gone when you wrote this? Hmmmmm...??? I percieve that you are filled with the Holy Spirit...and wise...but..in response to your post..with all due respect ..here is what I have to say...

    Greater is He that is in me than he that is in the world! The devil WILL NOT use this religious thread "against" me or anyone else for that matter!!

    In my weakness..HE IS MADE STRONG!!!!! This is truth....I have no fear of showing my weakness..but I do have a fear of being weak...that's a little bit different...pride.

    Confess your sins to one another....hence "confession" thread in the religious forum....and I don't care if everybody knows my business as long as they know what God is also doing about it...then..it is testimony!!!

    well, as i said earlier, my well meant words often getperceived wrongly and i believed its happenend again, i just dont seem to be able to express feelings in a way that energizes, rather than antagonizes. Maybe im less smart and more of a jerk than I thought. Sincerest apologies mam.hardly anyonecomments on my posts other thanmisinterpreting them, again my fault I guess.There are some great philosophers on here doing a far better job than I. Your kind words are most apreciated and I shall hold a tighter reign on my tongue from now on.
  • View author's info posted on Feb 04, 2006 16:24


    Harleys1Angel write:

    HavFun..I really like what you have to say ..in most cases except this one of course!! LOL! Where have your scriptures gone when you wrote this? Hmmmmm...??? I percieve that you are filled with the Holy Spirit...and wise...but..in response to your post..with all due respect ..here is what I have to say...

    Greater is He that is in me than he that is in the world! The devil WILL NOT use this religious thread "against" me or anyone else for that matter!!

    In my weakness..HE IS MADE STRONG!!!!! This is truth....I have no fear of showing my weakness..but I do have a fear of being weak...that's a little bit different...pride.

    Confess your sins to one another....hence "confession" thread in the religious forum....and I don't care if everybody knows my business as long as they know what God is also doing about it...then..it is testimony!!!

    now THAT"S why I'm marryin her
  • View author's info posted on Feb 02, 2006 23:53


    Harleys1Angel write:
    OK....confession time...don't even know who or if anyone is going to read this..but here it goes..

    I met someone I REALLY liked on a christian dating site..gorgeous man...godly man...I KNEW he really liked me and the feeling was mutual..we were just getting to know eachother after about 2 months..the whole thing just felt right..

    We started talking on the just before going to NY and I think I made a HUGE mistake..

    My first post on this thread was a confession of wanting to do good or be a bad girl...blah blah blah...well...

    I am on something called livejournal and basically you say anything you want on it just to relieve stress or say what is on your heart...it's a live journal. So during this last little phase of mine I said some things that weren't well let's just say should come from a christian girls mouth! If he only knew all of it! Man!

    So he read it...I think I just lost the guy I am supposed to be with!! Dammn!!! He wrote me when I came back from NY and dumped me flat on my A$$!! Out of the blue...I am sooooooo upset right now...havent stopped crying since I've been back.

    That's exactly why I have stopped judging people for what they do or don't do as far as "sinning" is concerned. It just makes them feel bad. I feel like I wasn't "good" enough for him....you know what a terrible feeling that is? I am so upset!!!!! I just feel like ..well...being a complete sh!thead like I used to be!!!!!! It is no friggin good to even be honest anymore! F@CK SH!T F@CK ME RUNNING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

    ...me, Hav fun, is a guy with low self esteem and very much dwells on his problems,insecurities, building mountains out of molehills, not trusting himself, he turns to others for advice, in search of the right thing to do, cause he really wants to, ya kno? But his mentaly baring his soul makeshim vulnerable, for all his well meant honesty, and even the most well meaning people may perceive a quite different meaning to his words than the one he wishes to convey. "who cancontrolthe tongue"? refrain from anger, refrain from expressing too much of your self doubt, your dreams, to the general public..u mean well, but the devil will use it against you. A hard lesson, H1A, but one I am learning, and if my remarks are way off base, I sincerly apologize. You are a good person. or this wouldnt bother you, I hope this helped it all make sense. thank you.
  • View author's info posted on Feb 02, 2006 23:36


    Harleys1Angel write:
    OK....confession time...don't even know who or if anyone is going to read this..but here it goes..

    I met someone I REALLY liked on a christian dating site..gorgeous man...godly man...I KNEW he really liked me and the feeling was mutual..we were just getting to know eachother after about 2 months..the whole thing just felt right..

    We started talking on the just before going to NY and I think I made a HUGE mistake..

    My first post on this thread was a confession of wanting to do good or be a bad girl...blah blah blah...well...

    I am on something called livejournal and basically you say anything you want on it just to relieve stress or say what is on your heart...it's a live journal. So during this last little phase of mine I said some things that weren't well let's just say should come from a christian girls mouth! If he only knew all of it! Man!

    So he read it...I think I just lost the guy I am supposed to be with!! Dammn!!! He wrote me when I came back from NY and dumped me flat on my A$$!! Out of the blue...I am sooooooo upset right now...havent stopped crying since I've been back.

    That's exactly why I have stopped judging people for what they do or don't do as far as "sinning" is concerned. It just makes them feel bad. I feel like I wasn't "good" enough for him....you know what a terrible feeling that is? I am so upset!!!!! I just feel like ..well...being a complete sh!thead like I used to be!!!!!! It is no friggin good to even be honest anymore! F@CK SH!T F@CK ME RUNNING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

    just found this thread, You and I have at least 2 issues in common, low self esteem, and revealing our inner thoughts in public..in your post you kick yourself because of your low self esteem, and you are mad at yourself for saying some things"outloud" that came back to haunt you...everyone here is cheering you up, which is good, BUT they console you by blaming it all on the guy..and in your heart you know this isnt the truth, not the whole truth, anyway, and my heart goes out to you and I swear my intent is not to hurt, but to help, and I promise I have been in much the same position, so here is what I dont think anyone is telling you, and I offer it in love, may God and you forgive me if I do wrong here..continued
  • View author's info posted on Feb 02, 2006 20:40


    H1A,

    Thanks for the thread. It has been interesting to read through and see everyone's compassion, understanding, insight and struggle to understand, cope with and recover from what is the human condition.

    Peggy and Carla,
    As always your sharing enriches others.

    I think the most we could learn is patience first with ourselves as individuals struggling to reach our best potential and if we learn that we might find more patience in our harsh and blind judgement of others.

    Serenity--being so at peace with yourself that the outcome of what ever is occurring doesn't unsettle one. If you attach to a desired or feared outcome, you loose your serenity. Serenity is realizing that even a horrible crucifixon and drinking a cup you would rather pass is transformed by God into a blessing beyond comprehension. If you can take your life and look at each circumstance as an opportunity for God and you to bring his light here and that your perceptions/judgements might be off but trust in his Love for you; you will have found serenity.
    What is a good Christian?
    Love thy God with all thy heart soul mind and body.
    Love thy neighbor as yourself.
    Where does God dwell? Within you, You are his temple. His lighthouse in the storm. Don't let the weather of life darken your light for many souls are at sea and we each help to navigate the reefs of grief and destruction.
    If you stumble as I have let me be patient with you that together we may walk more confident in our unity and humble in our Spirits that we may leave only Love in our wake.
    "Feed my sheep" and "Follow Me."

    My confession--I really enjoy the community here.

    Peace to All
    SSoul
  • View author's info posted on Feb 02, 2006 14:00


    Nodey write:

    smile2005 write:
    "I feel like I wasn't "good" enough for him....you know what a terrible feeling that is?"

    H1A? Maybe he's not good enough for you...I think you are a wonderful & beautiful woman & I'm so glad that you & I had a chance to talk while out in NYC. Hugs to you my friend...

    Here's something that Cinderella shared with me & I'm going to share it with you...

    My ability to love and feel for you is a part of who I am, not a part of who you are. Your ability to feel for me, or lack thereof, is a part of who you are, it is NOT a reflection on me.



    Ya know,I just came to this thread today. I've been dealing with my own thing lately,and have been feeling like I have pushed everyone else to the side.

    Smile,I'm so glad you posted this. It's opened my eyes to some things I've been dealing with and struggling to make a decision on.

    H1A,I know you are hurting now,but know one thing. Only God can judge you on whether you are a true Christian. As long as you feel right with God,it's between you and him. Don't let a man decide that for you.After much thought and tears,I have decided if I was meant to be with someone,I will be. It's good enough for me at this point.

    Hugs Nodey...& I was honored to meet you out in NYC & thankful that you & I had the opportunity to talk like we did...
  • View author's info posted on Feb 02, 2006 11:53


    smile2005 write:
    "I feel like I wasn't "good" enough for him....you know what a terrible feeling that is?"

    H1A? Maybe he's not good enough for you...I think you are a wonderful & beautiful woman & I'm so glad that you & I had a chance to talk while out in NYC. Hugs to you my friend...

    Here's something that Cinderella shared with me & I'm going to share it with you...

    My ability to love and feel for you is a part of who I am, not a part of who you are. Your ability to feel for me, or lack thereof, is a part of who you are, it is NOT a reflection on me.


    Ya know,I just came to this thread today. I've been dealing with my own thing lately,and have been feeling like I have pushed everyone else to the side.

    Smile,I'm so glad you posted this. It's opened my eyes to some things I've been dealing with and struggling to make a decision on.

    H1A,I know you are hurting now,but know one thing. Only God can judge you on whether you are a true Christian. As long as you feel right with God,it's between you and him. Don't let a man decide that for you.After much thought and tears,I have decided if I was meant to be with someone,I will be. It's good enough for me at this point.
  • View author's info posted on Jan 30, 2006 18:11


    MoonNStarz3X3 write:

    No, I don't consider myself to be Catholic....there are too many things that upset me about the church. However, my own faith is still deeply rooted in what was taught to me as a child. There was a real low point in my life where I felt so abandonded by so-called "good Catholics" , I just about didn't believe in anything...until God helped me pick myself up & gave me a strength I never knew I had. Bottom line is...I have my own personal relationship with God & I guess I don't feel I need the vehicle of the church to bring me closer....it just gets in the way, does that make any sense? And yes..."in nomine patri et filii et spiritus sancti" is right!


    yep, 11 and half years of white shirts, blue ties, and blue pants here. 3 years of Latin and all i can remember is the Sign of the Cross, the Hail Mary and the Our Father. kinda sounds like we may be close to the same place spiritually.
  • View author's info posted on Jan 30, 2006 10:31


    MoonNStarz3X3 write:
    You're welcome H1A! To answer your question, no..I'm not Christian. I was raised in a strict Italian Catholic household, and was turned off by the Catholic church at a young age. I'm not a subscriber of any organized religion, although I'm a very spiritual person. Yes, the Christian aspect with my ex's family was a bit of an issue, but there were other things as well....too much to get into on this thread! I'll tell ya all about it one day if you have several hours to kill...LOL


    i'm curious, do you still consider yourself Catholic even though you may not subscribe to all their beliefs?
    "in nomine patri et filii et spiritus sancti" - is that right?
  • View author's info posted on Jan 30, 2006 06:25


    mspyder write:
    Christi,
    I'm very sorry to read that things did not work out with this man. When I have felt similar feelings as you did and things do not work out it seems like it takes me a long time to recover from that.
    Seeme brought up something that haunts me from time to time. The first time I feel in love was I was 18 years old this woman hung with me thru Vietnam but when I got home I was such a mess and I have not seen her since I was in the hospital after I got home. I wonder sometimes if that was my only shot at love because it has sure been a struggle since then.
    I believe my higher power has a plan for me, I don't think it was just to be a counselor for 29 years and to give back what I took. My good friend she keeps telling me I will met the right person some day. That seems to take a lot of faith. I have a very dirty past before I sobered up and I know it still hangs there sometimes and I think I do not deserve, I hope that makes sense.
    Hang in there,
    Mike


    Mike

    WE ALL HAVE A PAST--I'VE SAID IT IN ANOTHER FORUM--WE ARE HARDER ON OURSELVES THAN WE ARE ON OUR FRIENDS WE NEED TO CRADLE AND FORGIVE OURSELVES AS WE DO OUR FRIENDS AND ACQUAINTANCES

    you and i come from an era that families had their dirty little secrets

    i was once told never to talk about certain things because NO DECENT MAN WOULD WANT ME--that statement allowed me to accept unacceptable behavior and i need to make sure i keep it in check--i need to make sure i take the time to be in touch with my feelings

    Mike dear--if you were supposed to be with your 1st love--you would be--and as your friend says--there will be a woman that will sweep you off your feet and vice versa--and until then--keep the wind in your face and the rubber to the road!!!!!

    hugs and kisses to you
  • View author's info posted on Jan 29, 2006 22:28


    Hey Beautiful, You said what was in your heart and I
    m sure unloaded what was needed. If he doesn
    t understand or thinks he
    s better than you, you
    re better off that he
    s gone. Chin up, i
    m proud of "YOU" Christi and proud to have you as a friend!!!
  • View author's info posted on Jan 29, 2006 21:23


    i think that we belong to soul groups and there are several partners in that group--but not necessarily at every point in our lifes

    we change throughout life--our needs and wants change--so we may meet someone today that would be a good mutual match but that doesn't keep us from growing apart

    if we are lucky enough to meet our soulmates we can't take that for granted and need to make sure we work on the relationship--keeping it fresh and make it the most important earthy relationship--not take the other for granted--communicating feelings and listening to the others feelings
  • View author's info posted on Jan 29, 2006 20:59


    H1A

    i have truely loved a person i dated in high school--i ran because of his words when he was using(i'm ACOA) and i was wise and knew what would have happened had i not

    we re-met when i was 1st seperated(he was in recovery for over 20 yrs) and we dated for 8 mths--i truely love him and realized i always did---he judged me based on my actions that were similiar to his ex-wife's--at that time i was going thru emotional hell

    i to this day and till the day i die will always love him--i don't think i would ever trust him with me again--butttttttttt if he ever needed me i would be there for him

    looking at it i think some of the lessons were this

    we all can love more than one person at one time--the love we have for each person is unique and of its own right

    i can also love someone enough to let them go--if we are meant to be we will--but his happiness is more important to me than him being with me--and something he once told me--sometimes to forgive we need to understand

    if we are standing next to someone and they keep hitting us in the leg we get pi$$ed off--yet if we know they have terretts(sp) syndrome we move so that we aren't in their way

    does it hurt less--hell no!!!!!!!!!!

    you are a beautiful woman inside and it shines thru--you are a strong woman--and i think that there are men out there that can't handle that--so love him enough to let him go--the one that can truely handle YOU THE STRONG WOMAN WILL SHINE THRU AND HE WILL LOVE YOU ENOUGH TO LET YOU GO IF NEED BE--BUT YOU BOTH WILL BASK IN EACH OTHERS GLORY
  • View author's info posted on Jan 29, 2006 20:52


    Harleys1Angel write:

    DOUBLED81 write:

    Dynamal write:

    Harleys1Angel write:

    Dynamal write:

    I know what position is open....um...husband? ROFL!!!!!


    OK..no givin the Ol Guy a heart attack

    AND HE CALL'S ME RICO,,,,,,LOL,,,,man im glad some of my favorite people are posting on here,,, this is were we heal,,,,,SPADO ,,,,if protecting my loved one's is judgeing im guilty also,,,,,,you guy's heal me everyday too,,,,and while i've got you all here i want you to know i love you all,,,,and i hope that you make this a regular stop daily ,,,also i need one or more of you to help me on the our daily bread thread,,,,,i post some pretty cool stuff daily,,,,,and since the bk wont let me post right after my self some time's i have to pull something that may not have touched all that it could have ,,,,,,so help me out ok ,,,,,Bless you fine people and thank you for being my friend's,,,,,,Peace...<><

    DD81--BK wont let me post after myself either...so what you have to do is go to the person before you who posted and hit the "reply/add comments"...type in whatever you want and your new post will appear after the last one!

    Did I tell you thank you lately for all your kind words and uplifting posts and e-males??? THANK YOU!!!!!

    Can we get a group hug here??? anybody???

    (((((((((((((GROUP))))))))))))))

    and I could not think of Two Better People to help me ,,or a Group Hug,,,,,,,Thank You...<>
  • View author's info posted on Jan 29, 2006 14:07


    Thank you DD81, you to are a kind and helpful person and I am truly blessed for having met you even if only thru this site.
    I am looking forward to Strugis when I can shake your hand and give you a brotherly hug.
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