Ever have a wave come over you and you grab pen & paper and out it comes?
Well this happened to me about 10 minutes ago. I speak from the heart, perhaps it will touch someone:
My heart was once filled with love, spilling out onto the one I thought was deserving of such a precious gift. The hands that once held me began to hurt me and love became clouded in my eyes.
Over the years I endured much always wanting to be a good mom and wife but I was slowly being worn down by someone who did not see my worth or my abilities. He ignored my cries in the night and one day ran into another until I found the courage to walk towards freedom and away from b@ndage. The step that lay before me were not easy ones but yet I continued on, stumbling and growing weak but still I prevailed. The one who broke my will, my self esteem, the one who vowed to love, honor and cherish me 'til death will have to answer for himself in the end.
There have been a few that have come along in the last several years, always bringing hurt alongside love. Always taking, pretending and promising. I began to look up instead of around and not focus on my circumstances or finding someone to fufill me because I know God alone fills the empty spot He created just for HIM and he loves me uncondtionally. He was preparing me as well as preparing someone for me once I knew my worth and now know where my strength comes from. The sun has begun to shine through the darkness, my heart
has started to give and receive love again because I've met someone whom I feel will not hurt but will help heal. Someone who feels blessed to know me, someone whose heart is big with an outpouring of tenderness and honesty.
I've found a solid man of courage, faith, self esteem and worth.
roxie..beautiful what you wrote and i have a feeling you touch many people......sounds like you got your self a winner there.....all my love and best wishes go your way for both of you.................your right, sometimes getting there really is painful, but on hinesite we can thank the ones from the past because they prepared us for our future and for the good ones.........i'm so happy for you........
Thanks everyone for the well wishes, I know the words were mine but perhaps it will help the one who feels like she will never be valued, or the one who is being hurt at the hands of her husband or boyfreind or the one that thinks love has passed them by.
Chin up...That which does'nt kill you will make you stronger
I have really liked you ever since I first came to BK. Your kindness and peacemaking ways have been an inspiration. You are able to say a lot with just a few words.
I am thrilled to see a sweet woman like you find a guy like Dynamal to CHERISH all of you.
Wishing you both many happy hours
Connected from the Heart.