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Posted on Wed, Dec 19, 2007 06:35

I have been known to say that I dont believe in God, and here is yet another reason why..Ive met a wonderful man on BON, introduced to him by CW, we have spoke for many weeks, and he was the best of the best..a heart of gold, a true friend, concern, the kind of person that puts a smile on everyone heart that meets him..things were going so good for us plans to meet after the holidays and see where it took us..then all of a sudden last Friday night he passed away..I dont understand, if there is a god..why did he take such a wonderful human being at such an early age..why dosent he take the ppl that are causing hurt or harm to other people, the people that have no regards for anyone else..why someone who is the best of the best, a great father with a great job and a great heart??..I miss him with all my heart and I am so sad..dont want to bring anyone down here..I just dont get it?? : (


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Posted on Fri, Dec 21, 2007 09:32

Re:Ditto on that Donna. We have become such great friends in the past few months. I value your friendship more than you know. :) Hang in there g/f. HDsweetcheeks write: Thank you Patti..I know I can always count on you to be there for me..I hope you feel the same way ..your the best friend anyone could ask for : ) Re: irishpatti write: Re:I'm so sorry Donna for you and for CW. It's a terrible loss. CW e-mailed me and asked me to be there for you to get you thru this terrible and sad time. Even in CW's grief he is still watching out for you. Donna, know that you have friends to help you thru this. Lean on me and hopefully I can help you thru your grieving g/f. HDsweetcheeks write: I have been known to say that I dont believe in God, and here is yet another reason why..Ive met a wonderful man on BON, introduced to him by CW, we have spoke for many weeks, and he was the best of the best..a heart of gold, a true friend, concern, the kind of person that puts a smile on everyone heart that meets him..things were going so good for us plans to meet after the holidays and see where it took us..then all of a sudden last Friday night he passed away..I dont understand, if there is a god..why did he take such a wonderful human being at such an early age..why dosent he take the ppl that are causing hurt or harm to other people, the people that have no regards for anyone else..why someone who is the best of the best, a great father with a great job and a great heart??..I miss him with all my heart and I am so sad..dont want to bring anyone down here..I just dont get it?? : (



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Posted on Fri, Dec 21, 2007 08:01

Hey GF, How are you getting along. Just remember what I said it seems to help you. Hugs


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Posted on Fri, Dec 21, 2007 06:08

SC, My condolences to you. I met String once and he seemed like a really nice guy, I'm sorry to hear he has passed on. As for the God thing, that is up to you whether you believe or not. Myself, when I wonder about all the shit that goes on in this world that doesn't seem fair, I take this approach... If you don't know sadness, you can't comprehend happiness. If you haven't experienced loss you cannot appreciate what you have. So my opinion is that bad things happen sometimes to give us a perspective, or a comparison, to validate other events. It's just too bad that sometimes these points are made by us losing those we held dearest in our hearts.


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Posted on Thu, Dec 20, 2007 13:19

SC, I am so very sorry. I asked the same things, why, why, why when my fiance died. He too was good and kind we were so happy. I don't know that any of us could accept an answer if there was one. The heart still has to grieve. We have to get angry, cry, question. It is just that process. I like the saying (I am sure I am not quoting correctly but..) "I would rather live my life as though there is a God than die and find out there isn't". Many believe in God even while mourning a death because there is hope in belief. If there is no hope..I think many would wither away. I wish I could say the words to heal you, CW and his family. I still believe in God so I will pray that the pain you all suffer will ease quickly and your hearts will find strength from having known this man.


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Posted on Thu, Dec 20, 2007 12:21

Re: irishpatti write: Re:I'm so sorry Donna for you and for CW. It's a terrible loss. CW e-mailed me and asked me to be there for you to get you thru this terrible and sad time. Even in CW's grief he is still watching out for you. Donna, know that you have friends to help you thru this. Lean on me and hopefully I can help you thru your grieving g/f. HDsweetcheeks write: I have been known to say that I dont believe in God, and here is yet another reason why..Ive met a wonderful man on BON, introduced to him by CW, we have spoke for many weeks, and he was the best of the best..a heart of gold, a true friend, concern, the kind of person that puts a smile on everyone heart that meets him..things were going so good for us plans to meet after the holidays and see where it took us..then all of a sudden last Friday night he passed away..I dont understand, if there is a god..why did he take such a wonderful human being at such an early age..why dosent he take the ppl that are causing hurt or harm to other people, the people that have no regards for anyone else..why someone who is the best of the best, a great father with a great job and a great heart??..I miss him with all my heart and I am so sad..dont want to bring anyone down here..I just dont get it?? : (

Thank you Patti..I know I can always count on you to be there for me..I hope you feel the same way ..your the best friend anyone could ask for : )


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Posted on Thu, Dec 20, 2007 11:27

There were times that I,too,lost faith in God. For a striaght 2 year period in my life, I lost my Dad to a sudden massive heart attack, I lost my beautiful dog Flicka,she feel asleep and never woke up for unknown reasons. I lost the puppy I bought to replace her. The puppy had to be put to sleep because he had Von Willebrands disease and was bleeding internally with no hope. I lost my Husband to a massive heart attack. He died in the hospital,the same day he was due to come home. He had been in the hospital for an elbow infection. The heart attack was unexpected and of unknown causes.He got up to use the bathroom,came back and sat down,and died. I lost my first Grandson. He was born pre-mature. He lived for 3 hours,and died due to failure to thrive. I wondered, How can there be a God? How can God let these things happen? He must be a cruel God. I re-gained my faith at the birth of my 2nd Grandson. The first time I looked upon him,in all his beauty and splendor,I knew there had to be a God. A few years later, I lost the love of my life,Patrick,to a massive motor panel brain tumor. That is when I lost faith in God and in myself. My world became dark and ugly and cold. I hit a bottom,in which I felt there was no way out. In that bottom,in my darkest hour,I met God. A divine entity swept all around me,and lead me out,and showed me a better path to walk. He saved me from myself,the sorry ass wretch that I was. I have had God visit me on several occasions. I have seen his work in miracles around me. I remember once,in NY,I was in a turmiol after Patrick died. I prayed for one thing,asked what it would be like to feel serenity. A sudden warmth flowed over me,I felt sensations that to this day, I can not begin to explainn. I felt peace.I felt what is was like to feel serenity.God gave that precious gift of total serenity for those few moments,but also let me know that serenity did not come so easily,it was something I had to work hard for.I see his work in the children I work with. To see a child with a fractured soul recover,and heal,and move on back into life outside of the walls that house them in the facility,truly has to be God's work. I see his work every day in my Grandsons. And, even though there is so much uglinees in the world,there is also beauty and magnifigance that surely had to have been created by a divine power. I wish I had the answers as to why people and other things are taken away from us suddenly,and untimely. To everything,there is a reason.I do not always agree with,or accept those reasons,nor do I understand them. I just try to deal with them,and be thankful for the beautiful and miraculous things immediatly before me in my life. I am sorry for your pain. I have also felt that pain. I know how you are feeling.I understand. May peace and serinity find you,and embrace you,in your time of sorrow. Debbi

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Posted on Thu, Dec 20, 2007 10:32

Re:I'm so sorry Donna for you and for CW. It's a terrible loss. CW e-mailed me and asked me to be there for you to get you thru this terrible and sad time. Even in CW's grief he is still watching out for you. Donna, know that you have friends to help you thru this. Lean on me and hopefully I can help you thru your grieving g/f. HDsweetcheeks write: I have been known to say that I dont believe in God, and here is yet another reason why..Ive met a wonderful man on BON, introduced to him by CW, we have spoke for many weeks, and he was the best of the best..a heart of gold, a true friend, concern, the kind of person that puts a smile on everyone heart that meets him..things were going so good for us plans to meet after the holidays and see where it took us..then all of a sudden last Friday night he passed away..I dont understand, if there is a god..why did he take such a wonderful human being at such an early age..why dosent he take the ppl that are causing hurt or harm to other people, the people that have no regards for anyone else..why someone who is the best of the best, a great father with a great job and a great heart??..I miss him with all my heart and I am so sad..dont want to bring anyone down here..I just dont get it?? : (



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Posted on Thu, Dec 20, 2007 10:01

sorry Darlin,, to much pain for you at this time of the year


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Posted on Thu, Dec 20, 2007 09:02

I am with you Sweet, when it comes to your beliefs. I am so sorry for your loss. I don't understand what chart is planned for us when we are born and how such good people go so early in life when the scum of society seems to go on forever. Thinking of you girl, and hope that smile and "cheek" comes back soon.


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Posted on Thu, Dec 20, 2007 08:11

Sweetcheeks, There are no answers when I tragedy like this occurs. It is difficult enough to understand when you do believe in God, but when you don't it is even more difficult to understand. My husband was a wonderful man. Kind, caring, hardworking, devoted to family and friends and a church goer/believer. His suffering...the length of time and the amount ...were infathomable to me...but he accepted it all with grace. There are no answers, despite what some people say....other than it was his time. We all have a place on the calendar when it will be our time to go home. God takes the good ones in my reasoning because he loves them and needs them with him...but that is my opinion. Remember the wonderfulness of this man....laugh, cry, rant, yell....grieve for what is lost....and most of all, remember what he gave to you. If you need me, I am here.


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Posted on Thu, Dec 20, 2007 07:49

I am sorry for your loss and would not give you any platitudes or explanations as any effort to comfort would be an insult to your loss. I am sorry this has happened. Junie


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Posted on Thu, Dec 20, 2007 07:12

Thank you Southern..he was the most wonderful man I had ever met, and never had a bad word to say. You can see it in his pics, Im glad you noticed it too..thanxs for the hugs..I really could use them.


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Posted on Thu, Dec 20, 2007 07:01

HD, I don't understand it either. I know who you are talking about and you are so right. A wonderful man that was taken away at such an early age. I just saw the pics CW posted on the site and he always had a smile for everyone. I will never understand why God takes the best from us. Hugs to you. He touched your life for a reason.


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Posted on Thu, Dec 20, 2007 05:02

I'm so sorry for your loss.


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Posted on Thu, Dec 20, 2007 04:47

Thank you all for your words..just doesnt make any sense to me..and I guess it never will..The one thing I have learned from this is to tell people how you feel, let them know that you love them everyday, because you never know when the last time you will talk or see that person..life is so short. CW has become a very special friend, one for letting me get to know his "brother" and two for being there for me, I hope I have been there for him also..he truly is a blessing..THANK YOU CW!


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Posted on Thu, Dec 20, 2007 04:17

Donna, I lost the most wonderful man that had ever come into my life 9 yrs ago. He was my 'everything for 25 yrs' and I could go on and on about him in all positive ways, he died 'very suddenly!'. I have no answers either, and I've tried my best to understand why it was HIS will to take my beloved at such a young age (44) and from his loving family. BUT, I know there is a reason and a lesson I'm to learn from everything in my life. That one's just been the hardest and most elusive one for me to this day! I have to tell you though, I am in TOTAL agreement with Maneater/Suzanne and Teach on this and I agree with Glide....read that book and read others for support. I've also heard many good things about the book; "Why do bad things happen to good people." I was told when Gino passed that God needed more Chief's and good men in Heaven. Had a heck of a hard time swallowing that one at the time, because I felt his family needed him here. HOWEVER, I KNOW he would not have wanted to be hooked up to any tubes and have myself and the children caring for him in that manner. I WOULD HAVE DONE ANYTHING though at those moments to KEEP HIM HERE with us.... NOW, looking back, I sitll have no clue as to why it happened, I just try to carry on diligently and be here for my children, to LOVE life and those in it with me. I have SO MUCH TO GIVE and yet still have found no one to share it with........SO, I share with my friends here locally AND my BK Familia!!!! Have strength and know that for the most part, none of us 'get it' really....we are all here for you though, KNOW THAT!!!! If ya want/need to vent, chat drop me a line.... MANY HUGZ sent your way this day.... OXOXOXOXOXOXOXO Suz/Bran~;)


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Posted on Wed, Dec 19, 2007 23:55

Dear Sweetcheecks, I know you must be hurting to the very core of your being losing your friend. I also know there is nothing i can say to ease your pain. But please know that you have friends here that care about you. I would like to post an Irish Bessing here for you if you don't mind? Don't grieve for me, for now I'm free! I follow the plan God laid for me. I saw His face, I heard His call, I took His hand and left it all... I could not stay another day, To love, to laugh, to work or play; Tasks left undone must stay that way. And if my parting has left a void, Then fill it with remembered joy. A friendship shared, a laugh, a kiss... Ah yes, these things I, too, shall miss. My life's been full, I've savoured much: Good times, good friends, a loved-one's touch. Perhaps my time seemed all too brief? Don't shorten yours with undue grief. Be not burdened with tears of sorrow, Enjoy the sunshine of the morrow. I hope in some small way you can find some comfort in it.... My heart goes out to you during this very trying time...Puft


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Posted on Wed, Dec 19, 2007 23:35

Re: TeachOnWheels write: I'm truly sorry for your loss Donna, there aren't answers that you are looking for. I for one, know there is a God and he doesn't usually work the way I want Him to, but He works. We all have lost many wonderful people too soon. I wish I could give you a hug right now, but know you are in my thoughts and my prayers.



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Posted on Wed, Dec 19, 2007 22:53

HD... My condolences and sympathies are with you. I have wondered the same things; you are no alone in your contemplations. Take care. -Ken


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