It's pretty pathetic that I've been single most of life. Ah~ What a life. It makes me wonder how could I keep myself in sanity.
Lucky that I had met few genuine people who taught and touched my heart through their deed without words.
Some people are straight in and out, they keep their promise no matter how hard it is. I believe in that's make us as human.
Infantry soldier - I did not choose but had to finish the duty. Computer programmer for 5 years Forest firefighter for 4 years Automotive technician for 3 years including 2 years of schooling.
I'll go back to the home country soon. Plan to be a farmer for the summer in home town. Run a repair shop off-season through winter.
I'll fix youngsters' bicycles without charge as future investment. LOL.
A child has open-mind, hardly afraid of being failed. A child cries for the moment, then the child start do it again and again. That's why any children has great potential for future.
A little penguin chick has a dream "I'll catch a big fish someday!"
It's pretty pathetic that I've been single most of life. Ah~ What a life.
It makes me wonder how could I keep myself in sanity.
Lucky that I had met few genuine people who taught and touched my heart through their deed without words.
Some people are straight in and out, they keep their promise no matter how hard it is. I believe in that's make us as human.
Infantry soldier - I did not choose but had to finish the duty.
Computer programmer for 5 years
Forest firefighter for 4 years
Automotive technician for 3 years including 2 years of schooling.
I'll go back to the home country soon.
Plan to be a farmer for the summer in home town.
Run a repair shop off-season through winter.
I'll fix youngsters' bicycles without charge as future investment. LOL.
A child has open-mind, hardly afraid of being failed. A child cries for the moment, then the child start do it again and again. That's why any children has great potential for future.
A little penguin chick has a dream "I'll catch a big fish someday!"
Penguin, mostof my life I couldnt even see the glass, rather than if it were only half full. went through my own hell an realized I looked for and expected the worst to protect myself from further pain. This site is the sum total of my social life,and its escape from the rest of my life. It is much better to be optimistic, laugh and help brighten someone elses day, even while going through pain or knowing it will soon arrive. dont envyothers, most folks arent as happy as they appear, but rather, as they choose to be. Its an empowering thought! And I used to think I was powerless against the fates, the world. Be good to yourself, and help somebody who needs a hand!Some of us spend way too much times in our own head..or i could just be a pompous egotistical know it all!!!!!!
Penguin, mostof my life I couldnt even see the glass, rather than if it were only half full. went through my own hell an realized I looked for and expected the worst to protect myself from further pain. This site is the sum total of my social life,and its escape from the rest of my life. It is much better to be optimistic, laugh and help brighten someone elses day, even while going through pain or knowing it will soon arrive. dont envyothers, most folks arent as happy as they appear, but rather, as they choose to be. Its an empowering thought! And I used to think I was powerless against the fates, the world. Be good to yourself, and help somebody who needs a hand!Some of us spend way too much times in our own head..or i could just be a pompous egotistical know it all!!!!!!
Hey YP, It sounds like you have lived a lot of years in just 36 years. To tell you to try and find the good in your life is not negating your feelings. I think we can all safely say we look at out lives at some point and wonder 'what did I do? Could have done? will I do?' etc. What you are doing can be a healthy thing...taking stock. Being alone is much better than being with someone and being miserable with them. That is lonelier than anything I myself have ever known. Hopefully you will find some contentment in growing your crops. Who knows? By nurturing your crops you nurture yourself and when you do that the one who is right for you may respond to all of this when you least expect it. Maybe not and you know what?? You will make it ok. You will. A loving partner can be the ultimate point of happiness but NOT the ONLY one. Just keep on keeping on and share when you need to.
Hey YP,
It sounds like you have lived a lot of years in just 36 years. To tell you to try and find the good in your life is not negating your feelings. I think we can all safely say we look at out lives at some point and wonder 'what did I do? Could have done? will I do?' etc.
What you are doing can be a healthy thing...taking stock.
Being alone is much better than being with someone and being miserable with them. That is lonelier than anything I myself have ever known.
Hopefully you will find some contentment in growing your crops. Who knows? By nurturing your crops you nurture yourself and when you do that the one who is right for you may respond to all of this when you least expect it. Maybe not and you know what?? You will make it ok. You will. A loving partner can be the ultimate point of happiness but NOT the ONLY one. Just keep on keeping on and share when you need to.
My answer is you have to be content being single and living your own life and having your own interests, first... then it will come to you, when the time is right.
The most attractive people to meet are those who are happy, content, enjoy their life and have various hobbies and interests. So work on yourself and being happpy the way things are, then the rest will follow. :>)
My answer is you have to be content being single and living your own life and having your own interests, first... then it will come to you, when the time is right.
The most attractive people to meet are those who are happy, content, enjoy their life and have various hobbies and interests. So work on yourself and being happpy the way things are, then the rest will follow. :>)
YP, For goodness sakes. Stop being such a glum penguin. You are always writing about how lonely and bored you are. Do something about it! Go out and find fun,make your own fun. It isn't going to come to you like a pizza delivery. You have to grab life by the ass and take off with it. Open yourself up to opportunities. You are the one who is restricting your own self from meeting someone. Explore! Let go! It's a big world out there to play in. Your idea about returning to your home sounds adventureous. Go for it! Free your mind,and your ass will follow. Just do it. Debbi
YP, For goodness sakes. Stop being such a glum penguin. You are always writing about how lonely and bored you are. Do something about it! Go out and find fun,make your own fun. It isn't going to come to you like a pizza delivery. You have to grab life by the ass and take off with it. Open yourself up to opportunities. You are the one who is restricting your own self from meeting someone. Explore! Let go! It's a big world out there to play in. Your idea about returning to your home sounds adventureous. Go for it! Free your mind,and your ass will follow. Just do it. Debbi
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