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Fuck'in Perfect

10-MAY-11

Made a wrong turn, once or twice.
Dug my way out, blood and fire.
Bad decisions, that's alright.
Welcome to my silly life.
Mistreated, misplaced, misunderstood.
Miss 'No way, it's all good', it didn't slow me down.
Mistaken, always second guessing, underestimated.
Look, I'm still around.

Pretty, pretty please, don't you ever, ever feel
Like you're less than fuckin' perfect.
Pretty, pretty please, if you ever, ever feel like you're nothing,
You're fuckin' perfect to me

You're so mean when you talk about yourself; you were wrong.
Change the voices in your head; make them like you instead.
So complicated, look happy, you'll make it
Filled with so much hatred, such a tired game.
It's enough; I've done all I can think of.
Chased down all my demons, I've seen you do the same.

The whole world's scared so I swallow the fear.
The only thing I should be drinking is an ice cold beer.
So cool in line, and we try try try, but we try too hard and it's a waste of my time.
Done looking for the critics, cause they're everywhere.
They dont like my jeans; they don't get my hair.
Exchange ourselves, and we do it all the time.
Why do we do that? Why do I do that?

You're fuckin' perfect to me !!!!!!

Never going to be alone

08-MAY-11

Time, is going by, so much faster than I
And I'm starting to regret not spending all of here with you
Now I'm wondering why I've kept this bottled inside
So I'm starting to regret not selling all of it to you
So if I haven't yet, I've gotta let you know

You're never gonna be alone from this moment on
If you ever feel like letting go, I won't let you fall
You're never gonna be alone, I'll hold you 'til the hurt is gone

And now, as long as I can, I'm holding on with both hands
'Cause forever I believe
That there's nothing I could need but you
So if I haven't yet, I've gotta let you know

You're never gonna be alone from this moment on
If you ever feel like letting go, I won't let you fall
When all hope is gone, I know that you can carry on
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We're gonna see the world out, I'll hold you 'til the hurt is gone

Oh, you've gotta live every single day
Like it's the only one, what if tomorrow never comes?
Don't let it slip away, could be our only one
You know it's only just begun, every single day
Maybe our only one, what if tomorrow never comes?
Tomorrow never comes

Time is going by so much faster than I
And I'm starting to regret not telling all of this to you

You're never gonna be alone from this moment on
If you ever feel like letting go, I won't let you fall
When all hope is gone, I know that you can carry on
We're gonna see the world out, I'll hold you 'til the hurt is gone

I'm gonna be there always
I won't be missing a word all day
I'm gonna be there always
I won't be missing a word all day

Respect

01-MAY-11

1 and 2 and 3 and 4
This my rap song

isss ha, isss ha, isss ha, isss ha
1-2-3-4
I get really sick and tired of boys up in my face

Pick up lines like "What's your sign" won't get you anyplace
When me and all my girls go walking down the street
It seems we can't go anywhere without a car and does"Beep-beep"

Cuz this body is a priceless piece of lovin' unconditionally
Yes sir
So, Mr. Big-stuff, who you think you are?
You was thinkin' you's gonna get it for free
No, no, no,

Hey ladies
(Yeah!)
Let 'em know it ain't easy
R-E-S-P-E-C-T
Let's come togeta'
Sista's
(Yeah!)
Its time to be greedy
Nothin' good comes for free
1-2-3-4
Mirror, mirror on the wall, damn I sure look fine
I can't blame those horny boys, I would make me mine
When I pass you in a club, "Ooh, lala!" you gasp
Back up boy, I ain't your toy, or your piece of ass

Cuz this body is a priceless piece of lovin' unconditionally
yes sir
So, Mr. Big-stuff, who you think you are?
You was thinkin' you's gonna get it for free
No, no, no

Hey ladies
(Yeah!)
Let 'em know it ain't easy
R-E-S-P-E-C-T
Let's come togeta'
Sista's
(Yeah!)
Its time to be greedy
Nothin' good comes for free

Hey ladies
(Yeah!)
Let 'em know it ain't easy
R-E-S-P-E-C-T
Let's come togeta'
Sista's
(Yeah!)
Its time to be greedy
Nothin' good comes for free

No jealousy, no envy girls, c'mon, let's work it out
No freebies in the limousine, that's not what its about
Let 'em know there's work to do, give it up he won't call you
Respect is just a minimum, come on girl and get you some

1-2-3-4

Hey ladies
(Yeah!)
Let 'em know it ain't easy
R-E-S-P-E-C-T
Let's come togeta'
Sista's
(Yeah!)
Its time to be greedy
Nothin' good comes for free

Hey ladies
(Yeah!)
Let 'em know it ain't easy
R-E-S-P-E-C-T
Let's come togeta'
Sista's
(Yeah!)
Its time to be greedy
Nothin' good comes for free

Let's come together
Come on girls let's work it out
Let's come together
We'll show them what we're talkin' bout
Let's come together
Come on girls let's work it out
Let's come together
Let's come together
Let's come together
Nothin' good comes for free

My submission on the back of your bike with my arms around y

01-MAY-11

I kneel, supplicant before you
my will
offered up in quiet acquiescence
awaiting your approval
or reproach
the fine line between pleasure and pain
becomes ever sweeter with your control
with every touch, kiss, word
smoldering embers are kindled
tormenting desires awakened
I quiver
captured by heat and hunger
bend me to your will
My Lord
show me what you most desire
my purpose but to serve
through your dominion I find myself
You, the Master of many
my only

A Tale of Bad Habits

01-MAY-11

A Tale of Bad Habits (Ike's Tale)

I used to smoke a little weed,
I could roll a joint nice and tight,
I occasionally did some other deeds
To help me make it through the night.

I gave that stuff up a long time ago,
Haven't touched it for many a year.
I'm certainly not a teetotaler though,
I still like to knock back a few beers.

My beer, I like served with a strong shot back
I'm of the dark beer and micro-brew school.
And nothing washes down a shot of Black Jack
Like a pint of Montana Moose Drool.

I know my limits, and when I'm on my bike,
I know when to put it to bed,
'Cause riding my Harley is what I like,
And that's hard to do when you're dead.

Or worse, you could end up alive, sort of
but not able to ride your bike
Let me tell you the tale of a "bro" that I love
Let me tell the sad story of Ike.

Now Ike had a fine old chopped panhead
On which he'd done all the work,
He had a sweet wife, two rowdy kids,
But his brother-in-law was a jerk.

One night that jerk pushed Ike to far,
He stormed out and jumped on his sled,
He rolled on down to a good biker bar.
started tossing back J.W. Red.

He finally quit,and he went for the door
But before he staggered outside,
I said, " Old friend, you know the score.
Why don't you let me call you a ride?"

He ignored me of course, roared off on his sled
And he soon put that pan in a slide.
When they reached him at first, they thought he was dead
But Ike is tough, tough enough to survive.

But he'll never ride again, they say,
Ike's been in a wheelchair all Summer.
His bike, his sweet wife just gave it away
to the brother-in- law, ain't that a bummer.

Never is a promise

17-APR-11

You'll never see the courage I know
Its colors' richness won't appear within your view
I'll never glow - the way that you glow
Your presence dominates the judgements made on you

But as the scenery grows, I see in different lights
The shades and shadows undulate in my perception
My feelings swell and stretch; I see from greater heights
I understand what I am still too proud to mention - to you

You'll say you understand, but You don't understand
You'll say you'd never give up seeing eye to eye
But never is a promise, and you can't afford to lie

You'll never touch - these things that I hold
The skin of my emotions lies beneath my own
You'll never feel the heat of this soul
My fever burns me deeper than I've ever shown - to you

You'll say, Don't fear your dreams, it's easier than it seems
You'll say you'd never let me fall from hopes so high
But never is a promise and you can't afford to lie

@@@@NO LOVE LOST, NO LOVE FOUND@@@@

14-APR-11

Life continues on towards a quest that may never come to pass.....I'm 46 retired and going back to school.... I'm most comfortable surrounded by bikers...hanging at the club houses where I feel secure (well as secure as one can).... I have family who has disowned me because of my choice of friends ( they call then outlaws)...

A good number of friends are doing time and I stay loyal to them and silent in regards to their misfortune... everyone needs friends, encouragement and second, third and forth chances...... .this is a lifestyle I have chosen to live which is against society but I truly don't care and love dearly...One always has their reasons for doing everything. Mine is no less or no more important.

Another lifestyle aspect I have chosen to live for the past 25 years is a D/s relationship... to me its stronger than any marriage... there's a bound to that person in ways that NO marriage could offer...Most feel its about sex but that's only 1% of the make up.. yes I give my body over fully and eagerly (masochistic at heart) but mostly I give my devotion and loyality. Yes I have lived 8 years totally in this realm and it ended at aother's hand not mine... I refuse to succumb to societies idea of the perfect marriage that ends in divorce.

Please do not judge me instead simply get to know me... when I'm with a man my attention is on him only. Disrepect is not tolerated. I do enjoy a man who is possessive even though I wont give him a reason to be...Dominance goes without saying.. Things I enjoy which is a part of biker and of the d/s world is you will never find me walking before a man..always to the side or a step back is where I'll be.. I will never go into a situation that I'm unsure of without my man clearing the way... Im used to the brothers coming first and I know my place and take comfort in it..I ride with NO other unless requested by my man...I try to get along with everyones ole ladies but my personalty is strong and there will sooner or later be a struggle for dominance... I'm only submissive to him I belong to so everyone else watch out.. Example: If I'm in a bar having words with someones bitch and its getting heated either two things will occur..1) My man will simply give me a look that tells me to knock it off and go back to my seat and the heated argument is over even if the other gal continures to push. I am not to move..2) Flipside I;m in a heated argument over dominace which happens even between us gals and my man gives me the okay to go in for the kill (play on words) I know he's got my back taking care of the ole ladys man and I guareentee I'll win my battle.. lmao Always someone bigger and badder which means fight dirtier lmao I'm sorry just a couple situations I've found myself in. LOLOLOLOL

Another situation that is a must in my life is RESPECT and I see women cross lines constantly that are made for men only.... Numerous times sitting in the open patio of Jerry D's having a beer when a new set of HA patch holders proudly walk in sporting their new colors that define them... I watched the women who were sitting by their men across the yard, staring intentivly at the patch holders...In astonishment I've seen these women get up and disrepect their men by going over and flirting... Next thing the women leave with the crew and when they walk by the stare at their men, Testosterone fills the air with electricity but no fighst breaks out because the women were not worthy of respect since they gave none...

I'm sure I will get a lot of grief for what I wrote but its my beliefs and I don't chance. If you wish to debate then I welcome it... If you wish to bide for dominance take heed you will be left in shreds. I understad totally that not many think the way I do and the womens libers are probably about to hang me..lol this world was made for the freedom to have different views and I'm using mine.

Currently I am psych Student at Metro State with a minor in hunan services. I do not fit the mold of the $300 hr behind a desk psychologist... My skills will be used for the ones who can't afford such services. Everyone deserves help! I was one of those people and in my hour of need I was alone. Noone new where I was and noone cared , no ID, no money, the life I had was gone! Imagine standing in the heart of Denver, looking around and noone hears you scream for help or even sees you.. your tears dont catch someone elses eye. I became that person at the hand of someone else and I swore that if I didn't die I would never let another person feel the pure agony of not knowing where they were going to sleep, eat or if they were even going to live. My heart belongs to the homeless and the biker community....For three days I lay at the park (colfax/broadway) out of my mind,,the homeless gave me their coats to keep me warm since it was November... On the third day a couple bundled up clubbers rode by me and for some reason had pity on me.. I owe them everything, not out of demand but thankfulness.

I am a strong person with a big heart but it will take you time to earn my trust. I