This blog will be a first for me, and I certainly don't know what I'm doing. However, that being said, I've always thought that writing by any name(blog, journal, diary, etc.) would add a new dimension to me, my life, and my journey. Sooooooooooo.......here I go......or......"Screw it, let's ride(borrowed from a Harley promotion)!
I absolutely detest, despise, and dread Mondays..............yet this one ended OK. I recently started going to a therapy group(on relationships). Actually, this was the second meeting........twice a month for six months, each session 2 hours in length. I had never participated nor even thought of being involved in a group, but I have to say......this is gonna be a blessing in multiple ways! I KNOW it was a total "God thing" that this group was starting shortly after I started going back to my therapist(not the moderator of my group) for some more healing and growth, etc. I think I wrote some on my earlier post about all the damage my ex caused me. So tonight, I made some beautiful progress, and in the process, set another goal which I think I need to obtain. We shall see if the progress is real or imagined as these next two weeks pass. It's all about relationships, isn't it? This website is about the same thing. Our thoughts are bombarded with questions, worries, and "what if" scenarios daily(at least in my case), and that consumes tons of energy. I realize not everybody is looking for a relationship, and some people already have their "one true love". However, for the rest of us mere mortals, we undoubtedly occassionally face the grim spectre of whether we will live the rest of our lives WITH someone or alone. I'm at the point now that I'm thinking I could be OK with the latter possibility...........at the same time HOPING that my "one true love" is out there...........just waiting for me. I'm confident that as my healing and growth continues, God will show me more of His plan for me................I have total faith in that! Yall keep YOUR faith always. Peace, Dragondog52
Hey Yall...........I think the subject for this entry is centered on life/relationships/love. I've had pretty crappy experiences with marriage, but reflecting back to my past, I realize all that was basically my fault. The past was filled with bad choices, poor decisions, and actions based on "heart" instead of "mind". One of my true constant quests is to gain more wisdom. God is leading me to that. At this point in time, I'm concentrating on "me" and my healing(lot's of damage/scars/trauma from my last marriage). I've got to figure out what exactly I want in life and what kind of relationships I should develop. I'm also OK with the fact that maybe I'm not supposed to have that "one true love". Maybe God's plan for me is to give to others and serve His children instead of having a woman. I just don't know...........but I'm at least in a secure and strong enough place, at this time, to calmly explore and grow. I don't know why, but for the last 6 or so years, the Eagles' song "Desperado" touches me in a very poignant way........especially the part about "your prison is walking through this world all alone". Maybe it is.............maybe it isn't! God will show me the path. Peace, Dragondog52
For my first entry, all I'm going to say is that it's late, and I've got to get up early.......so...........thank you and good night. Don't forget to tip your bartenders and waitresses on your way out. Peace, Dragondog